Over the past few days I have been having trouble with this girl at my school. Every time I try talking to her she'll say something like, "Why are you talking me?" or, "Don't talk to me." Like I'm so beneath her I don't have the right to say anything around her. And then she'll go along to call me things like bitch or hoe. She's told me I look old, made fun of my clothes, and laughed at me when I try to stand up for myself. Today I yelled at her and told her to leave me alone, and she laughed in my face and the friends who were with her, who I thought were my friends, laughed along with her, as if I was a joke. That just hurt me so much, I broke down crying. I felt so weak. It pisses me off when people laugh when I get angry. I don't get angry a lot, but when I do people laugh at me. They think it's so funny, and when I get really angry I cry.
I am not a joke. I don't want people laughing at me when I'm upset or hurting. I don't want people belittling me.
When I told my friend she just told me, "She does that to everybody." I don't care if she does it to everybody. She did it to me... She shouldn't be doing it at all! No one should be treated like that. No one should be laughed at like that when somebody is hurting them.
Am I so ugly and old, and so much of a bitch that you can't treat me like a fucking human being? Am I that much beneath you? Am I that much of a joke?
I am not a joke...